“You have to follow your own voice. You have to be yourself when you write. In effect, you have to announce, ‘This is me, this is what I stand for, this is what you get when you read me. I’m doing the best I can—buy me or not—but this is who I am as a writer.”David Morrell
Turns out that staying at home when you’re 50% introvert renders the extrovert half almost non-existent. I thought working from home would mean that I would publish more of my writing on here, but, as I’m sure many of you also experienced, the pandemic life turned out to be pretty emotionally draining.
Also, there are so many K-and C- dramas to binge watch!
If you’re still here after so many months of silence, I am so grateful and humbled by your patience. And if you’re new here, welcome! There are some wonderful things to come in the next few months. After all, I couldn’t completely ignore or starve the Muse. it’s just that I felt too tired to share it last year.
I doubled down on my inner work in 2020 – keeping my online therapy appointments every week – even when I wanted to throw a tantrum or punch my therapist in the nose. Self-awareness and taking personal responsibility is TOUGH. I felt like I had reached the highest level in a video game only to discover the final boss was actually myself.
But all that hard work did clear a path for me to do something I have been wanting to do for a long time, but was too terrified to do. Part of my online silence (I haven’t breathed a word to any of my social media followers either) was due to my fear that I would once again fail to complete this very personal goal.
And half way through, I once again wanted to throw a tantrum and punch my Master Class trainer in the nose (sensing a pattern here?) Thank goodness she and other close friends kept encouraging and believing in me and wouldn’t put up with my excuses.
So I can now announce to you some incredible news:
I’ve written my first book!
That feels so weird to say. I wasn’t sure I could do it, but my accountability partner, Kim, and I talked every single day – sometimes for hours at a time. Now I have a finished rough draft and I’m currently working on the first draft.
It’s some of my most vulnerable writings to date as I explore my grief journey after losing my Dad in 2018.
I felt called to write this book first and foremost for my Dad, who always loved hearing me tell stories. Secondly for myself, to capture the memories and emotions that have been close to my heart for the last three years. And lastly, for all those who grieve and have ever felt like they were alone in dealing with all the new and messy emotions and experiences that come with grief.
Newsletter Coming Soon!
The biggest and scariest news for me on this is that I will be publishing this book under my real name, not this pen name. The Universe/God has been fairly loud about it being time to stop hiding, to step out in faith, and let my voice be heard. My introvert half is absolutely terrified to take this step, but there is no denying that I am being called to take it.
Because I still plan to keep this blog and any future fiction I write under my pen name, I’m letting you all know that if you are interested in my new book and the ongoing journey to write and publish it, you can sign up for my brand new newsletter. It’s so brand new, it doesn’t have a name yet! But I will be sending out regular updates on the progress of the book, exclusive excerpts, and goodies that I’ll be giving away to the first few readers who pre-order the book.
A-Z Blog Challenge
In the meantime, for the month of April, I’ll be participating in the A-Z BLog Challenge again as a way to keep you up to speed before the new website and social media accounts are up and running. And today was a pretty big announcement (see what I did there?)
So stay tuned! In the next couple of days, I’ll be revealing the title of the book, share links for a private Facebook group and more!
I am so excited to share this personal, often very painful journey with you.
A member of the Water Street Writers, Mikaela D’Eigh is a writer, poet, gardener, mental wellness advocate, and a lover of Scotch, K-Pop, and KDramas. She writes about anything and everything, using all the crayons in the box. Currently, she lives out in the country with two Egyptian gods disguised as cats, a herd of cows, and the occasional flock of wild turkeys.
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